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From the recording Keeping Busy EP
I can't deny, that I rely
On people to comfort my lonesome
I feel too much, I should not complain
Some people are just dead behind the eyes
Life stabbed my chest twice
With a bloody knife
To prove to me that I just was not right
'Cause I did not trust myself now I
Do not anyone else I'm
Fearful to open up 'cause in the past they've runaway
They've rot away, they all decay, it all decays, decomposition of it all
So afraid I'll ruin it all, ruin it all, ruin it all
Don't let this decay, just this once
Let someone stay
She made every scratch an infested open wound infected she
Lit it up in flames and burnt it down to dust, ashes jammed up in
Peoples brains, she was poison in our veins
Venomous when she gnawed, she was toxin to our bones and she rotted our teeth
Small speech and deeds over time un-noticeably
Don't shoot me with an arrow if you don't plan to reclaim it
Don't push me off the cliff if you don't plan to be waiting at the rocks
Don't let myself fall so easily don't let it slip don't let them juggle with me
Don't let myself fall so easily don't let it slip don't let them juggle with me
You see, I have a tendency to see right through the shell
Unsure if it's a benefit, just makes me vulnerable when I
Can love anyone despite of anything
But they usually do not feel the same
They rationalize everything when it's not a necessity it's not a necessity I'm
Fearful to open up 'cause in the past they've run away
So afraid I'll ruin it all, ruin it all, ruin it all
In the past they've run away, they've rot away, they all decay, it all decay's oh
Decomposition, decomposition
Afraid I'll ruin it all, ruin it all
So afraid I'll ruin it all
Don't let this decay